Author Archives: Tomas

Dreams and Ex-girlfriends

I often wonder what my dreams are trying to tell me or why certainthings appear that I haven’t thought about in years. Last night I hada very vivid dream (in stereo) about finding a new job, which is OK,but what weirded me out is that I got a job at a toy store, the verysame store that my ex-girlfriend from high-school works. DeannaRobinson, why do you still occassionally haunt my dreams? This is nowthe third time you’ve been in one of my dreams as my Continue reading →

Google Search: finding yourself

Google Search: finding yourself Finding Myself, Who Am I, What Do I Want? Not Finding Nemo, but finding myself. I seem to question myself and this nature of being on a regular basis as of late. I don’t know if it’s my ambition, my state of affairs, selling most of my worldly possession or social structure, but I seem to ask myself the question “What the Fuck am I doing?”. Who I was. Am I comparing myself to what I was 10 years ago? 5 Continue reading →

So Much Stuff

I have too much stuff. I have so much stuff, I sometimes go through the books I own only to find something I somehow bought twice because I forgot I already own one. I have so much stuff, I spend more time managing it around my tiny room that I never seem to have time to enjoy any of it. Case in point: I have had a guitar, bass guitar, and electronic piano for over a year and I’ve only touched any of them for Continue reading →

You Don’t Understand, I want to learn EVERYTHING Inquiring minds have this problem of always being inquisitive. Seriously! I struggle to keep myself from going even MORE into debt every time I go to the bookstore to find a specific book. If you let me, I’d walk out with carts of books with every little subject I have even the smallest interest. I don’t know about you, but in addition to learning how to make my own battling death robot, reading fiction, learning foreign languages, art, and the unpredictable behavior of the Continue reading →

Not voices, just HDTV and Dolby 5.1 in my head.

Do you ever wonder if you have a mental problem? I do. However, I don’t really see it as a “problem” but as more of an “issue” or “condition” that can be directed for the use of “Good” and not “Evil”. I’ve been told I should get checked for and possibly prescribed to fight “ADD”. As defined by WebMD What is ADD? Attention-Deficit Disorder (ADD) is a neurobiological brain disorder that manifests as a persistent pattern of inattention and/or hyperactivity-impulsivity that is more frequent and Continue reading →